Domo. :D

yes yes im supposed to be doing my cg1101 tut.
but i have no more brain left to concentrate, unfortunately...
and i seriously cant make head or tail of whats going on anymore.
hais. lets just wait for tmr's tutorial...
lucky my tutor is not bad. :3

was talking to my laoban.
thinking of a lot of things. (yes i know im supposed to be doing my cg1101)
of the past,
bad things,
good things,
things i have done wrong,
things i wished i never did,
people i wished i never had met.

and things i wished i never got involved in.

i would love a time machine.
to go back to correct all these mistakes,
to undo all the wrong things,
to make lotsa things ok again.

but unfortunately,
what i would have lost in the process is my learning experiences.
what i learnt through the falls, the mistakes, the tears, the pain.
what made me ME.
instead of the same old person i had been in the past.

and im still learning thru all the pain and tears and falls.
even now.
so i guess its not such a bad thing.
like now,
i learning all over again how to let go of things, of people
to evaluate what is more worth my time and effort,
and what have i wasted on that is of no use.
like i tink the 2 mths that i wasted from may
for someone was totally a waste of time.
i realised yesterday.

or maybe its wrong to say i learnt nothing.
i learnt a lot.
how to let go.
who are my true frens who will truely stick by me when things happen.
how important i was to that someone after all.

and all these are a part of me.
maybe the next time i pick myself i will be a better person.
or rather i hope to be a better person.

i told u i will be waiting.
its not that i dont want to wait anymore,
or of anything else.
but i have lost the chance to wait,
when things change,
when you got busy,
when i didnt seem as important anymore.
or rather,
when i was no longer of importance anymore.
i didnt want to let go,
nor to give up.
but by the looks of it i dont have much of a choice anymore.
the decision doesnt lie on me anymore.

today was tiring.
SURPRISINGLY tiring.
i didnt expect myself to be so tired sia.
going to sleep sooon liao.
tmr is an early day.
later i cannot wake up then really can let brandon niam for 20 years liao.HAHAHA.

sociology tutorial was fun.(:
but tiring.
its like a rerun of gp, xcept u must prove ur points with the concepts and
cannot anyhow humtum out the answers.(:
but thats what makes arts mods fun.(:

BUTTTSSS.
after an exhausting 2 hr tutorial,
i dont tink i have much brain cells left.
i should have kept some behind for econs.
must go "hi brain cellss, dont run out so fast k. slow down and WAIT UR TURN."
then hopefully on week 5 when i have socio tut again i wun feel so cui.(:
its same as lit ah.
i used to come out from lit feeling the same way.
BRAIN draining.
but fun.(: HOHO.
but i suddenly feel glad i made the rite choice (i think...)
that i didnt choose arts, even though for an instance i was
reallllyyyyy tempted to.
but i concluded being quite lazy a person,
i prob wun even finish ANY readings before exams.
like my lit also last min chiong one.
then if i take arts as my major 我不是会死倒很惨？
so heng arrhhss. take for fun not bad.
take as a degree...WA XIONG.

and must jiayou to CATCH UP!
MUGGG MUGGGG MUGGGGGG!!(:
がんばってですね！（：
私は勉強しますが大変好きです！（： (lets make this a self-fulfilling propercy.(: )

tmr is monday.
tmr is jialat day.
jialat jialat day...T.T

tmr have cg1101 tutorial which i spent most part of the night twiddling with and
YET still dont have much of a clue of whats going on.
and my windows installation is CUI.
im going to seek help from kenny and the guys tmr..T.T
like so n00b can load a windows also cannot.
how to survive 4 years of thisss??

then i still have jap test tmr...T.T
i havent studied. dunno got time study anot...O.O

and my og ppl is so scaryy....T.T
they finish tutorial and thingys so fast.
then i like super lag time everything also blur, dont understand, dont know how to do...
DIE.

and i realised this is the 3rd day im sleeping late in the night and
I HAVENT DIED FROM THE LACK OF SLEEPPPPP.(:
omj this is so rare.LOL.

as a freshie joining fow comm is so scary...judging by the fact i havent have a clue
whether i can even cope without any commitmentssss...=___=
but its ok.(:
i have a nice TOU.(:
hoho. and i trust joining fow comm i will have fun and learn a lot of things.^^

omg i wanna join photogggg.....T.T

大変がんばってですね！（：

南拳妈妈 - 下雨天

下雨天了怎么办我好想你
不敢打给你我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉溺
有谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
差別接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
有谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
差別接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
差別接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

so tired now...):
its like 04:38 in the morning,
and im still trying to back up my poor com.T.T

im trying to fix this by sunday so hopefully i still have time to clear my tutorials.):
HAIS.
gambatte desu sho!(:

this siao gina is doing phy trial assignments at 2-3am in the morning.
totally siao alr.
its not hardworking. just determined to try and finish it since i started.
BUDDEN. cmi ah. my brain tired like shit,
cosine write as sine, sine write as cosine.
cannot think properly le lar.
and the online thingy is SO MA FAN.
its like the ans must be exactly the same as whatever the ans is kind.T.T
and u have to slowly figure out what is all the shortcuts and stuff...zzzz =____=
i dont like.):

and i suddenly have this temptation to take out my camera and take MR L now.
oh god no. i will really chui tmr.T.T
still need to learn bball from SHEN tmr.
hope i dont die.
i really cant aim for nuts,
despite being a shooter... =____=
the last time i played basketball...
it was horrendous.OMG.
lets hope i dont throw too much face in all the ifg games...

ok i shall go kun now.(:
KUN!(: yes.

i suddenly have the motivation to swim again...(:
dunno why.
its a sudden random thing.
reading on some magazine that swimming is the most relaxing sport u will ever find.
its true.(:
it clears my thoughts. i like.(:
and i can swim for laps and laps without feeling the strain on my muscles at all.(:

and i feel like running.
haha. but my long dist is cmi.
i scared i like last time like that.
a while a while then i give up liao.):
i shall try to perservere this time.(:
RUN.SWIM.(:

YESSSS AH.(:

WATCHED 'UP' TODAY!(:

had a nice lunch with merilyn + xiuqi +huiwen at carls' jr.

even though its the 2nd time i ate there this week. O.O

but we had a nice long chat that was long overdue.(:

'UP' is a nice movie!(:

i dont mind watching again.HAHA,

its hilarious, and surprising.

surprising cause me and xq didnt expect it to be that good.

so the movie throughly surprised us and we really enjoyed it.

we were laughing to bits from start to end.(:

i wanna work in PIXAR. omg.):

ellie and carl as kids.(:
they look so cute.
and the storyline is pretty touching. :3

old and grouchy carl.
eventually russell softens his heart and
reaches out to him.
thus helping him to get out of his shell
from griefing for ellie.

listening : Tonight - FM static

i dont knowing why but im suddenly in a bad mood.
maybe its my phone.
or maybe my phone is just the trigger.
ive been feeling weird for a while.
just didnt want to address it,
didnt want to touch it for fear i will start emo-ing for a long time again.

the last emo bout i had lasted from may to end july.
2 freaking shit months.
never again will i go thru such shit for u.
i dont even see the point of the 2 months anymore.
i have frens who are much worth me spending my time with than
emo-ing at home like some idiot when you obviously dont care.

i told u to read my blog.
my advice fell on deaf ears.
and im going to bother blogging FOR YOU TO SEE.
if you cant even make the efffort to figure out my html,
which is on my msn anyway,
to type /copy it in,
click 'go',
than eff you.
because u cant make an effort to do anything.
and since u think that way,
why cant i?

i shall follow ur example than.

i hated that i always had to call first.
as if i wasnt impt enough for u to pick up the phone.

i hate that i was always the one who had to ask u out,
even though u cant be bothered to ASK,
and yet complained i didnt go out with you.

i hate the fact that nothing ever seems to be of importance to u.
nothing. i havent seen any sign of it other than ur com.
if thats the case,
then why are u stopping me from letting go?

for doing this to myself?

for always talking to nobody.
because nobody listens.

i have sch again todayy...):
the sociology one.
goodness hope this humanities course can save my butt.
the maths and phy and programming is going to kill me. D:
and somehow for some stupid reason till now i ONLY
understood econs. GOODNESS.
this is a complete irony.

HAHAHAHA. and 3 days after sch started i truely felt dead.
LOL. yest was HELL. i had 3 of 2 hr lecs which i didnt really understand,
then i had jap and THEN tuition.
felt like a living zombie yest.
i HATE WEDNESDAYS.):

waiting for FRI to come so i can watch UPPPPPPPPPP. :D

random thought : why do people label weird persons as 'ODD'?
i dont see them calling weird people 'EVEN'.
why must 'odd', the definition for 1,3,5,7...etc in maths be something weird?
so 2,4,6,8,... must be perfected normal?HAHA.
or maybe its the saying good things come in pairs.
so is being single a form of being weird, a.k.a 'ODD'?
heh.

listening : Love You - Howl

suddenly realise i dont know myself well at all.
i believe i do, but deep within i dont tink i well and truly know myself at all.
its like ive been seeing the same person i have been seeing in the mirror
for the past 19 years.
but i dont have an aim in life,
dont really know what im doing,
and i dont know who i am.

dont assume things when you dont know exactly what is going on.
WTF.
just assume away will you,
go ahead,
u dont understand when ppl enter the next stage in life things change,
situations are different,
then f*** off.
shit.

觉得长大了之后
要学会人际关系，要学会交际，
不是一件容易的事。

不止要学会看人的脸色，
也要懂得怎么做人，
在适当的时候说对的话。

着还免不了自己一头栽进麻烦的可能，
因为一定会有某种因素出现来搅乱局面。
我只想平平安安的过我大学的日子。
就什么也不用想，做我该做的东西就好了。（：

totally shagged today. =_____=
though we only flagged for ONE HOUR plus.
unlike other times flag so long also not so tired.
for some reason this FOW is more tiriing then FOC. O.O

so funny la today.
we had to do some freeze frame thingy video.
basically means be as AA as possible on the road.
the more ppl see means the more successful u are.
then we did this slow motion thingy.
and we froze in the MIDDLE OF ORCHARD ROAD.
like OMG... :O
THEN some tourists treated us like a tourist attraction and took photos
with US as the background.LOL.
damnn funny.

ok la.
i tink i shall edit this post another time.
too shagged alr. T.T

--Domokun's day out II --

Domokun bypassed BISHAN on his day out.(:

He really likes the circle line. :3

next destination : ORCHARD!

listening : 周杰伦 - 枫

suddenly feel emo.
and holy crap i need to wake up early tmr.
scully im the one late tmr then need to forfeit. =__________=
im also lazy to wear until so formal tmr. T.T

suddenly realise i dont really know what im doing.
i feel like letting go,
going on with my own life,
not needing to be bothered about you or anything like that anymore.
but for some stupid reason of urs,
im not allowed to.

i told tingting i didnt want to care,
but deep inside was i?
seriously i dont know myself.
from the start of may onwards i feel i have lost my ownself.
its like the shell is still there,
i still behave the same way, do the same things,
talk the same way.
but its as if something inside me has changed,
or maybe even died.
i dont know.

maybe im really starting to reach the stage of being an idiot acting like that.
and i think marion is right...
for her to be free herself to call me and tell me
"cherlia sth is wrong"
means STH IS REALLY WRONG,
and its dragging farr farrrrrr too long.

am i really going to wait for 1 1/2 years?
am i really that stupid?

ok. i shall update on what went on since wed.HOHO.

wed:

went for matriculation.(:
collected matric card + ezlinkk card + etc etc etc
wanted to buy NUSSU '08 yellow shirt butttttt....no more S size alr. T.T
then...i had to cab down to kovan for jap.
cause it was alr 6pm liao.
and i got stuck in the jam.
so despite the cabbbb, i was still late. ):
oh well. at least i didnt miss the whole lesson.
but the cab fare was a WHOPPING 20 BUCKS. T.T
my pocket just bled can...):

thur & fri:

stayed back in sch for fow stayover,
then when the camp ended stayed till 11 plus for float.
by the time i reached home at 12 plus almost 1,
i really felt like dyinggg....
and then i realised my mno1001 mod couldnt get.

WA SIAN.
so now i have to plan again what mod to take siaaa. ><
waiting for myself to have energy to take mug shots of MR L.(:
hohohoho. :3
mon have some inauguration ceremony.
must wear formal leeeeeiiiiii. O.O